lost her way

Tiring at work

2012-01-28T00:44:00.001+08:00

Feel very frustrate at work... Left many backlog and thing jus dun go my way. Trying hard to control my temper.want to preserve as long as I can...

happy Chinese new year...

2012-01-25T20:38:00.002+08:00

happy Chinese new year...

work have been BUSY.... don't even have a min to rest :(
damn tired...
want work it out soon...
my life my free time, my money my friends...

i ♥ my job...

2012-01-05T20:03:00.001+08:00

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whine.

2012-01-05T19:58:00.001+08:00

i trying my start not to whine...
i telling myself i will love my job~
i will LOVE my work!!

happy new year

2012-01-01T19:18:00.000+08:00

happy new year people :D

this year will be a special year too me :D

merry...

2011-12-25T23:03:00.002+08:00

merry christmAs to you & Him.

it been a long year... time pass so FAST...
i with citi for 1 year :D who will know?
soon i moving...
grateful for this year :D

sick

2011-12-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

feeling so tired...
flu/fever/backache... what else next?

praise the lord

2011-12-01T17:03:00.001+08:00

praise the lord...
i got the offer,but my heart is still not in peace :c

Special

2011-11-27T22:04:00.003+08:00

i'm special in god eye :D

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

annyong

2011-11-20T15:22:00.003+08:00

just came back from seoul...

Really love this place :) my life seen to be in place now. but i only face a tough choice soon.

going back to school soon. going for driving lesson soon... really want drive a car!

want save more Money.. MANY WANTS

trips

2011-09-11T22:37:00.002+08:00

i flying to HK in 3 days time... not really excited :c maybe been there too many time? this time going there with suyi... to relax and eat!!!

i finally brought my Korea ticket.... feel some kind of relieve... mad excited!
plannning & trying brush up my Korea.. HAHa~

diet

2011-06-19T19:02:00.003+08:00

i seriously need to be on diet... cannot drag any longer. i now have a very bad had habit, whenever i feel so stress i need to eat... i just need eat or bite something :c my weight is killing me. i can't wear any of my cloth... >_< very sad...

work is too much, sometime i not sure if i can handle another 7month? i want go on a hoilday badly. i hate doing project budget... i suck with numbers. but everymonth i see my credit card bill i feel like fainting :c

i sld start to plan and love myself more.. love my purse more :]

STRONG

2011-06-07T21:36:00.000+08:00

i going to be stronger....

self reflection

2011-05-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

some people think they are always right...
i belong to this counter....
i seriously want need do a self reflection this time...

April

2011-05-07T01:03:00.001+08:00

i have a wonderful april... after my taiwan trip.
I fully recharge, many thing to think abt my life. maybe life is more than what we see :]

no peace

2011-02-26T21:08:00.002+08:00

ever since i came back from the hospital... i become weaker.
i have been sick for the last 1 week...
i know some thing are not within my control....
i duno how to do this... i going leave everything to the lord hand.
i think it was a upset news for everyone.
my heart is torn by this... i trying hard to recover... i have continues of nightmare... it lead to i can't sleep. i trying hard to adjust, i know i can do it.
god bless the family & my friends.

gastric flu :[

2011-02-07T21:47:00.002+08:00

sick for the day...
this whole day i was very vexing... my temper rise till about... i was abt to bomb at anyone who going step on my tail! i was really feeling very horrible as i keep want to puke;(
i was analysis the dumb report the whole day till i want burn away the report!
just went see DR he say is gastric flu :[ i do not understand why i will have this... it does not make sense to me. i almost choke on the tablet... i hate eating medicine!!!!

thoughts

2011-02-05T17:26:00.002+08:00

i have my weakness.... i can't handle betrayal and death.
i not sure how control... simply not easy...
i really grateful i complete my degree & i got a good better job.
things are getting better... but there still fears of what go up will also go down..
my good luck seem to be only 3month only....:( i b33n reading... fears is something scary... it only weaken ur thought! i trying hard to overcome this. i want improve myself... want to be more wise..

oh my...

2011-01-26T21:43:00.003+08:00

i have nightmare lately... scary & terrible.

work load is coming... my boss have been good to me...
even people in the company is nice :] there a few friendly people :)
my company have alots harry potter & twlight face people working there.
boss is going on leave next week and den FLY to korea for biz trip :(
i will be left alone, talking to the wall?

looks

2011-01-15T22:31:00.003+08:00

shall i cut hair? i seriously want change my hair color & style...
if i can i want change want all body... haha...
get bored with my look...

haha... i going hoilday dan soon :)

New Year's Resolutions

2011-01-08T16:21:00.003+08:00

My New Year's Resolutions are:
1. become healthier ... i will eat healthier & exercise more.
2. more smarter & wiser, more knowledge!
3. i going learn to save more this year & pay off ALL my debt
4. i going tavel to taiwan, shanghai & korea.
5. last year i wanted get scuba diving license but this year will be abit hard but i will try make time for this before my body become stone.
6. THIS year i going get my driving license, no matter what happen :]
7. i going get my korea language basic cert :]
8. i not going involve in any RS this year will spend more time with de people i neglect:]
9. i going do yoga & swimming this year.
10. be more organise & manage time well... ..

happy new year

2011-01-01T23:33:00.001+08:00

variety show

2010-12-30T23:35:00.009+08:00

i now watching KBS song festival....

during this whole month i came to know a few new Korean band which i have neglect :)

seriously korea is so happening place...i promise to visit next year!

i know a few new words and new term. have you ever heard slave contract? it happen to some idol in SM Entertainment... it such a complicated industry.... but it none of my business. what really matter it i fully ent by these variety show!! there a few i list down which i already finish watching :) It very fun & relax to watch all these :)

shinee - hello baby

Mblaq - Army idol season 5

SS501 - Thank you for waking me up

Army Idol Season 2

this is the 1st korea boy band, i was addicated to :]

mary x'mas

2010-12-24T00:07:00.001+08:00

merry x'mas everyone....

hoho...

dreams

2010-12-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

dreams seldom materialize on their own :[

time pass so fast

2010-12-16T11:11:00.002+08:00

time pass so fast :(
i haven have a chance to really sit down and reflect...
ok whatsoever....
lately i have been very busy meeting all my long lost friend :)
grateful to have all these ppl in my life :)

annoying

2010-12-05T20:34:00.002+08:00

i seriously dislike the life i leading now....
someone please change it?
i feeling so annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love in the Ice - DBSK

2010-12-04T14:05:00.002+08:00

it's not your fault those hands are cold.
clinging onto the wounds of the past,
Afraid to love someone, turning your back against the true meaning of the story.
the heart that is hugged, slowly melts like ice.

to be loved by someone, by anyone
it makes life shine like this.
if it was me, i would make ur heart once agian warm with undying love.

fate's play, even though it makes your heart ache.
when the tears end, a ray of light descends from the darkness.
we can grasp it, we can feel the fierce painful touch of a person's warmth.
sorrow and loneliness that every person endures, searching for a refuge to mend.
yes that a place for you here, dun worry dun falter anymore.

i will protect you... because it is a love.
as beautiful as it is miserable. dun be afraid...

starting race

2010-11-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

i am so boring..... i can't get to sleep :(

tml have to work :( sitting in the office to pass time is really a easy job...

but i love to seek more opportunity to explore the world now :)

i waiting for the right opportunity to FLY. i believe my life is more than this... although i been very upset lately over some minor issue, but all these mean alot to me! other people may think i dumb to upset over all these but... it's ok :) this is my life, i can feel free to try anything i want :)

life is more than this... i praying for a fresh start.

" i know I’m not perfect, but I keep trying. Cause that’s what I said I would do, from the start."

没关系没关系没关系

2010-11-17T00:44:00.002+08:00

没关系 - 吴克群

你离开的时候没有一, 没有一句对不起
对不起是我太执迷
你离开的时候没有一句, 没有一句话说清说清楚

(你)离开的原因也许他可靠
他实际他不一样他能够给你安全感
不是梦想谁还在乎一起傻傻的说过那些话

没关系我们分了没关系这不是你的问题
是我没那个福气没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一句没关系没关系没关系

爱情里面总有一个比较傻要怪就怪我放不下
痛苦给我幸福留给你和他
没关系没关系没关系

i do not have a good feeling abt my rs with him... maybe it due my inferiority complex/ no confidence where this rs will lead to. i like this song... just keep playing.... 没关系
my fren say i 傻傻的...keep thinking of dumb thing... yet i can'thelp to feel sad abt all these.
我没福气 when it come to rs... i feel scary!
痛苦给我, 幸福留给你 .

my random

2010-11-14T00:01:00.002+08:00

randomly.... my life have it fair bit of up and down... making many tough choice~
this year ending so fast. i not sure why? catching up with many people who make a different in my life...
finally decided to leave, no planning and no answer....was it courage or his word that shake me up? i not sure... i dun want struck in this cycle anymore.. it really open up my eye & heart... ....

i MISS him

2010-11-07T23:53:00.003+08:00

i have nvr tell him how much i miss him!
when he back... i going tell him 1000x pre day how MUCH I REALLY MISS HIM!

i LOVE hIM !!!
YEAH

silly ashley

2010-10-25T21:53:00.003+08:00

haven really settle down... i can choose just quit or igrone what it happening.
but that simply not my style... i just seeking comfort and assurance?
i always trust if thing cannot be change, den human have to make changes...
i dun live with comfort alone.... that many thing i crave for :)
trying hard to clear my thoughts. i do not want lead anyone on.... i guess from now on maybe i can lead my life my own way? i duno... when he say he miss me.... i simply feel like flying all the way there... I REALLY MISS HIM! how to keep distance with HIM??? ahhhh.... i really a bitch :)

best successes

2010-10-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

men's best successes come after their disappointments

-henry ward

learning

2010-09-30T22:32:00.003+08:00

i learning how to control my emotion and juggle with multi tasking for work.
i trying hard not to lose my cool when i learn abt unfairness... becuz nothing is really fair :)
the work environment is not really what i looking for... but i learning thing that other place cannot teach. boss is a real jerk... but the rest ppl is nice :) i handle multi project assignment.. i actually love the process, but hate it when my boss pull my leg... u will nvr believe how many time he got us into problems! he always think he is right in everyway :(
everymorning he butter me, even not my problem :( some how i become more patient... i jus simply stone there :) this is how i pass 9.30 to 10.00. peace~

somehow i wish someone can pamper me now :(

life

2010-09-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

life is either a daring adventure or nothing :)
what your? my is an adventure...

make room for ur need

2010-09-26T22:34:00.001+08:00

ashamed of myself

2010-09-24T20:59:00.001+08:00

i tired of thinking thing that doesn't matter to you...
just thinking of you make me go crazy!
tear roll down like rains...
i don't wanna say goodbye~

i love my job

2010-09-23T23:12:00.001+08:00

i love my job
i love my job
i love my job
i love my job
i love my job''
i really love my job!!!

workss

2010-09-22T21:40:00.006+08:00

1st day at work...abit boring =(
I think FE is better than here... in so many aspect!!
i miss FE... haha~regret not staying there longer now.
i hope thing will be better :)
i have been visiting NLB... i been passing by the shelve and seeing mr warren buffet... till today i ask P more about him...but all his book is very thick! is an American investor, industrialist and philanthropist. He is one of the most successful investors in the world :)

tml i going have more works to do...

mr chaw say :
Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it!
Rule 2: The world doesn't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.
Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both. ...
Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.
Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.
Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from it
Rule 7: employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time. Rule 8: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.
Rule 9: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

dun you agree with all this? hmm...life short, treasure everything!

不爱了

2010-09-21T11:12:00.003+08:00

你的不快乐在心里弥漫著
我们怎麽了你在逃避著我在心疼著

是什麽在伤害著让美好都遗忘了?
你是背对的我是沉默的
我只好假装我已不爱了

催眠自己我们不适合我放开你了
我已不爱了说一个谎在离别时刻
就当作最后是我不爱了
关上门以后就算爱你又如何?

你快不快乐过得是否好呢
我这样想著你在爱谁呢谁在想你呢

是什麽在反覆著让回忆都翻起了你是遥远的
我是孤独的我只好假装我已不爱了

催眠自己我们不适合我放开你了
我已不爱了说一个谎在离别时刻
就当作最后是我不爱了关上门以后

就算爱你又如何?

done ;]

2010-09-20T17:52:00.006+08:00

i got a job, this settle all my money issue... also at the same time wish i can bury myself with work n have lesser time to think about other thing...:]
:{ i very sorry... if i become your burden somehow. i trying so hard....
i somehow can feel u are keeping your distance with me.... the feeling is BAD.

Life is full of uncertainties and we cannot avoid unpleasant surprises!

at the angry peak

2010-09-19T23:12:00.003+08:00

i have enough... compromise is not helping...
dun tell me i have not settle these craps well enough.
i moving out by next year....
by any chance any of your friend looking for marry partner? i will get marry with anyone...
i have enough of these craps. i want move out asap!
i will not bear with all these junk. i have no interest to inherit any of ur junk... unless you are Stanley Wong? yaya.. i the most crappy person... den what are you??
let hope god bring us apart :)

Clenching a tight fist

2010-09-18T23:21:00.003+08:00

i told you to go, to go away..
i replied back to you that i did't like you because i though i wasn't going to see you again.
i wanted to embrace you with my two arms but i couldn't do that because i was crying.

we can live apart... this is a farewell for us too. only fake laugh is coming out.
i will send you away so hurry up and go to be happy.
clenching fists tight, i started to cry.

we can't meet again, now we really can't meet... i bit my lips at these cold icy words.
i dun want to look back. i tell myself over n over again, but i can't do it :(

after that dreams of me findin you repeats again...
just staring into ur back, you dun smile back looking at me
i happily greet u even through there is no response from you.
i do this so that i won't end up regretting after i wake up fr this dream.
it isn't easy to fill up a blank space.

the memories just shine a light to where you are. words that i dun even mean it, i just send them to you. good luck my dear.
i didn't know it was this hard walking back home. my heart is stuffed up.

i need to live better ... i need to fight this off
no matter how much i tell myself... it is so hard to forget becuz thoughts of you roam in my mind.

we lub each other?
why are we breaking up like this? can we dun break up?
tell me that u can't live without me...you are going die without me...

開始懂了

2010-09-16T10:40:00.001+08:00

我竟然沒有調頭最殘忍那一刻
靜靜看你走　一點都不像我
原來人會變得溫柔　是透澈的懂了
愛情是流動的　不由人的
何必激動著要理由?

相信你只是怕傷害我不是騙我　
很愛過誰會捨得把我的夢搖醒了　
宣布幸福不會來了

用心酸微笑去原諒了也翻越了　
有昨天還是好的但明天是自己的　
開始懂了快樂是選擇

our last date...

2010-09-15T22:18:00.008+08:00

our last date... i know it will take very long or maybe no more chance to see p anymore :(
i just fulfill one thing that i promise to do with p. cycling at east coast. not everything in life can be forget...it also can't be erase no matter how hard we hard. i really grateful you appear in my life. you are like god precious gift to me, although time was short...i really treasure everything! i not sure how you feel...

oscar was with me during the cycling trip :)

after the rain.. the sky is so bright.

if this is a cycle track, then what our track?

the sky i see with different angle... maybe in few month time you will no longer see me in ur life?

pcpr = pcn?

surprise i would cycle all the way to bedok jetty :)

if this is goodbye... den i dun really wish to say...

alot of thinking... i not sure if u still want listen? but it ok...

thank you~

就算整個世界被寂寞綁票

2010-09-14T22:29:00.003+08:00

when i start to cry i ofter can't stop it...
i like a magnet for trouble.. one after another :(
i'm sorry ... i will amend my mistake...
But my most unbearable part is for moo to cry.. that hurt me the most.

你知道　就算大雨讓這座城市顛倒
我會給你懷抱
受不了　看見你背影來到

就算整個世界被寂寞綁票
我也不會奔跑
逃不了　最後誰也都蒼老
寫下我　時間和琴聲交錯的城堡

toward the end

2010-09-13T23:32:00.005+08:00

my stomach is upset just like my heart =( it just keep play drum and roll~
p say it have worms inside, by any chance it crawl in at night?

we are just two of a kind =]
someone must learn to really let go.... if not thing will not change.
today i try so hard not to call or msn p.
i think as time pass my feeling will slowly end?
it not the easy thing to do... but i promise to try very best to protect all my feeling for p!
qy say letting is also a form of loving P... so this time i doing it =]
no crying no complaining but with a smile :}
i duno why but i keep thinking mayb p have a new love? shall i ask? i not sure... i don't dare~
hahahah~

it Over

2010-09-12T15:29:00.003+08:00

i tell myself is enough i shall wake up...
no more crying no more self pity no more thinking...
i feel so miserable since this week :(
i hate myself behaving this way :(
i know very well, where i stand now...
final decision have been make..
i just have work harder & stand firm.

yst i come to notice who are really my friend. come on if you think i wasting ur time... den next time, if u have anything dun contact me!! i not responsible for your life. you are just some toxic friend in my life. if you are really dan great den u shall have many friend who are real... too bad~ i have enough of you :) i hope you have great time annoying all your friend!

寂寞寂寞就好

2010-09-09T16:02:00.005+08:00

she make her choice finally....

i feel very disappointed, i have try my best...

this time i not going say anymore... i understand if a person heart is not with me. No matter how hard i try.... eventually p will leave : ) i just have to wish p the best.

i try to be brave and tell myself it's ok. if i din put too much effort inside this, maybe i would just say fine. but it not easy : ( is this karma?? maybe i hurt too much people in the past, so now i getting what give? hmm....

shall i give p my blessing?

if grandma was here i would ask her what shall i do?

maybe i will dig a hole and hide her inside with me?

"your happiness depend on natural laws and principles - and you use them."

next stop

2010-09-08T14:58:00.003+08:00

i realise i just a passer by in p life... i not the final destination for p.
Maybe pwill find someone better in times to come :)
I will need to learn to gave p space.
i just have give them my blessing :)

my asset

2010-09-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

when you know the thing that you are holding on...
are no longer your, what will you do??
grab it or leave it??

i make a choice to hold on.... it maybe painful, but i dun wish to lost p.
P is a asset to me : )

peaceful

2010-09-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

PEACEFUL

unsafe

2010-09-03T22:35:00.003+08:00

i have some problem i dun seem be able to let go thing easily...
i will take very long time to to let go :(
i feel so unsafe...
i almost going break off... want find a hole and hide inside.
i hate uncertainty!
just don't understand what wrong with me?
1+1 =2 but how can't we just have 3?
how long shall i wait before i get a answer?

events

2010-08-31T22:45:00.002+08:00

i duno is lucky or? i just got a job fr one call :)
my fav event in marina bay sand :)
handle media counter.
hmm... let see how.. so early in AM :(
would love to explore marina bay sand :)

i want and to be done

2010-08-30T23:27:00.003+08:00

to be more healthy and will going on a diet this whole half a year :)
to be more wise & patient.
want smile even more... no room for sadness to fill in.
to be more understanding toward other.
to be more fufill daughter

want to accomplish on thing i haven complete on my wish list.

ahhh... i really want find a job that i can do and complete it with lub :)

back

2010-08-26T00:51:00.001+08:00

i going back soon....
i pray for a changes and thing will be better!
i feeling discomfort :(

it really complicated

2010-08-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

heart pain =(
I'm loss for choice/solution.

HK

2010-08-21T22:48:00.015+08:00

hoilday

2010-08-18T23:23:00.003+08:00

i at macau :)
it suppose be relax and free hoilday :)
but i seen sick and tired...
the air here is very bad...

courage

2010-08-15T00:39:00.003+08:00

you are the long waited rain in my draughty days.
you soak my heart and gave me courage.
you make me fly and smile again.
Coming into my arms and give me happiness silently :)
just like a rainbow after a shower.

endless time

2010-08-13T22:58:00.001+08:00

she fly off ... i start feel boring and lonely :(

i have million of time by myself... i start to let my thinking roam around the street... i think i shall not have allow such thing to happen again. all my thoughts are negative :[ that very bad.
i wonder what would i be like when i older? grumpier? or more wise? or uglier?? nothing seem good :( i really missing her....
i dun feel good about my trip .... i don't know if i too over sensitive now or? i don't know what stopping me. but this trip don't have good omen :9 i haven tell people i going to travel... i dislike the goodbye drama... i will come back quietly :D

tim finally sank in his OWN boat today... he went to a clubbing with another side dish and end up saw his gf in the same club... he end up running home alone :) moral lesson nvr cheat! see i told him he will get in trouble soon , dun trust old people? next time get catch please call another person... i duno how save people in such situation :] but i suggest to run home. * smart plan~

flying

2010-08-12T23:51:00.002+08:00

she will be flying off tml :(
i feeling so extreme aching & miss...
don't know if this is last goodbye or?
she never tell me... but i miss her badly now.
i wish i would hug her*

hope she will have good trip :(

G.NA | I'll Back Off So You Can Live

2010-08-12T01:05:00.002+08:00

i'll back off so you can live :)
(i know) you probably get sick of me
even though tears are rushing through me

i'll back off so you can live
that is all i can say...
i'll forget you, so you can live better?
so that you will be happy without me.

the love you toss away, you can take it back.
dun leave even a trace behind.

dun even say you are sorry...
dun worry about me

(i know) you will forget me
(i know) i will really hate you
i'll back off so you can live

(you) the reason i lived
(you) you were all i wanted

do you really love me?

broken heart...

2010-08-11T23:03:00.005+08:00

i just lose it and start crying..

i miss grandma very much

scary

2010-08-10T23:57:00.001+08:00

feeling so scary.....
it a burden month...
how to sleep? i can only switch on light...

run away...

2010-08-09T14:19:00.003+08:00

the feeling of waiting is bad :(
not having is worse than have.... you will never know when ??
i dislike the feeling :(
i really wish i can run away...

SESSION

2010-08-09T14:00:00.012+08:00

steamboat session

BBQ

tired

2010-08-07T23:19:00.003+08:00

it painful....

i having nightmare agian :(

i really tired.... can i still hold on to her?
I REALLY TIRED!!!!

pain

2010-08-05T09:05:00.002+08:00

Feeling the pain yet I can tell noone. How much I miss her!

Even in lalala land I see her! I jus wish to see her agian

over

2010-08-04T19:30:00.001+08:00

it over... but there still some pain =(

feeling

2010-08-02T23:48:00.002+08:00

was upset :( this time i know i have trust my own feeling...

fairytales

2010-08-01T00:43:00.003+08:00

suddenly i feel so worry.... there many things in the list.
i can't help to doubt abt the happiness i feeling is true?
very contradicting person i am?
i really very worry...
i can't tell the different btw what real and fake now....
is this a DREAM? If is it... i rather be awake...
i hate disappointment, that why i have not expectation from beginning.
i beginning feel more lub by her :)

But i know soon, i going back to square. fairytale will have a end:(
i will miss her badly.

anyway jurong point mos ice lemon tea suck, while IMM ice lemon tea taste better.
daiso no longer the place i enjoy anymore :9
thinking of make cookie, but i simply lazy to core :(
tml i staying home to clear all my rubbish! what a big mess i have... i can't find a place to sleep :( can't find my clothes and bag :( time to tidy!!!

next week will simply be busy week for me :)

roller coaster

2010-07-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

i going through a emotional roller coaster...
did i create e mess??
was i wrong??
maybe i shall end it??
i really tired, i just need someone to tell me everything will be alright... if i hang on...
If future is far, den who can i lean on?
really need someone to ensure me.

lucky - Jason Maz

2010-07-27T20:14:00.000+08:00

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love in every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday ♥♥♥

forbidden pain

2010-07-25T20:36:00.004+08:00

i feeling so painful and lost.
i feel myself behave so fake this day... i still have to put on a smile :(
i do not know how she feeling, maybe she have settle down her thought already.
i shall learn to give up and not hold on to thing that does not belong to me...
every time i hold on to her, i feel i going lost her very soon :( i hate that feeling.
i try to keep quiet abt this matter.
we know very well, soon we going say goodbye to each other.
leaving is for the better or worse, i not sure....?
i choose to leave, becuz i know she won't be mine... no matter how hard i try.
i just want see her smile, hope time will seal up her pains :)
i will give her - wings and let her soar freely without me as burden:)

but i feel the pains.... if time would heal this, it won't be now :(

i miss her badly...

by faith they overcome....

2010-07-20T22:58:00.001+08:00

god will provided something better for us:)
Believe in it :D

nightmare...

2010-07-18T21:46:00.001+08:00

feel the last 3month was a nightmare...
counting down to whole new life :)

a pack of lies

2010-07-15T21:56:00.003+08:00

when i decided to go... it show how determine i am.
how sad i am...
how disappointed i am...
i duno what is truth anymore...
i feeling sick of the process...

i just want get over with this now :)

i duno who is telling the truth. i very upset with her for not having faith w me.
i just wish thing will be better. 29 more day to freedom.

i want tell her what i know... but i doubt she will trust my words. what if i know is not the truth? den what shall i do?? silent ...

what dun kill me, make me stronger :)

selfishh me

2010-07-12T20:05:00.002+08:00

my heart feel extreme sad...
s say i too emtional, she ask me not to play w fire.
she say i will ruin her future... she ask me to gave her up...
that very mins i want to fight for my right.
but i know... she was right i can't possible be w her.
letting go maybe pain... but i sure i can do it!
1st thing i going do is resign :D

pray for me...

changes

2010-07-08T21:09:00.001+08:00

trying hard to adjust to the new envoirment and thing.. haven have any time to do my stuff :(
hai... why so many change?
i need a hoilday badly

DUN WANT TO CHANGE..

2010-06-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

I DUN WANNA TO CHANGE...

多完美

2010-06-06T23:32:00.002+08:00

从来不相信我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦寂寞还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿孤独懒得再去想谁.

没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
放下所有防备一切都无所谓...

happy :D

2010-06-05T23:03:00.001+08:00

i happy now!!!
try not to think & just relax n stone make me feel so much better :)

nothing

2010-05-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

nothing special happen... just register myself to a special course with a group of people. being a person who observe i realise there many kind of people. not everyone will sure to like you or be your friend. no matter how hard you try sometime you won't win the respect you expect.
If i know life would be so hard, i sure i won't enroll in here!

some ppl

2010-05-19T22:47:00.003+08:00

some ppl do not know to respect other.
some ppl have hobby of shooting email non stop.
some ppl do not understand some thing need time to be done.
some ppl simply take other for granted.
some ppl just practice hurting ppl using taiji.

i have conclude in order to survive in this horrible place i shall go for some business english class to improve my english.

me me me

2010-05-13T22:27:00.001+08:00

c&a

2010-05-11T22:09:00.003+08:00

i need more confidence & assurance now.
feeling so stress for the week :(
need someone to talk to!!

so LOST

2010-05-04T20:47:00.001+08:00

i so lost... still finding my way :]
was very positive in the very beginning...
slowly i find i totally can't adjust to everything :(

judgement day

2010-04-28T22:32:00.000+08:00

tml is judgement day :(
cross finger cXm

power ?

2010-04-26T22:53:00.004+08:00

seriously.. i do not know how handle people who too hungry for power? they step at other people ego, to climb higher - i feel this is terrible to the MAX!! i do not understand why that a need of hurting other people during that process? i guess power and money is the same, they are the roots to all problemS? maybe i not ambitious enough to feel a need to climb higher in the corporate ladder. i prefer to stroll my way up, although i do not left with much time :) i always believe when we do thing, we don't have hurt other along the way or we can try minimum the pains. i believe that such thing call karma! if working harder get you to where you want and hurting so many people during process, don't you think it a terrible action? people may not tell you , but seeing one after another leaving the dept make me feel you have use the wrong strategy to go up. i maybe nobody to say this, but my heart truly feel sorry for you :)

the next stop

2010-04-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

i dislike getting older... so scary :X they call this age crisis??
but i thankful to god for giving me so many wonderful blessing over the year :)
thankful to have so many nice people to guide me along the way :)
i hope thing will improve in whole year or forever!!!

thank you :)

choice

2010-04-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

i got job offer BUT i don't know which to choose?
bad choice :(

my prank

2010-04-12T03:05:00.001+08:00

on a night we i not productive i make such thing:)

hee.. i just told my moo. if i can't get a korean husband den i won't consider marriage :D seriously that nothing i dislike about korea... i shall stay there till i old :) i tell her to give me money, i will export myself to south korea :)

not having cash in my pocket is making me crazy. i been hiding at home watch korea variety show like 2 day 1 night and we got married. we got married = fairytale marriage :) you see how Korean celebrities to show how life would be like if they really married. Each week, couples are assigned missions to complete, with candid interviews of the participants to reveal thoughts and feelings experienced. my fav couple is Hyun Joong & Hwang Bo :) sometime you really need such show to lighter ur life... if marriage was such a easy thing, i guess there will no break up. seeing how kim hyun joong treat the older sis bride kind of sweet and bitter feeling. the sister is 6 yr older than him, in korea they practice talking to elder with formal respect. in that show they keep calling Hyun Joong = little kid groom. sometime he really treat sister very polite sometime kind of mean. but he always try to make the bride happy with his small and sweet action :) i wonder if such exist now? i hope i can find someone who able accept ALL my flaw and able to be so sweet:)

i hope to have a happy week ahead :D
later we going rock my body!!! yeye

someone life

2010-04-10T02:25:00.004+08:00

sometime i wonder who life i leading?
sometime it become so bitter till i find no strength to continue....
i want to lead a simple life and do the thing i like
i don't need money nor wonderful life.
but everything seen so tough for the past 2month. i trying so hard to preserves
am i walking someone else life?
sometime i just need someone support me along this tough time...

there nothing i can do anymore... just have wait for the opportunity to come :)

i know he will answer my pray one of these day!

my grandma

2010-04-05T21:26:00.002+08:00

你离开的那一天匆忙间来不及说再见
失去你的这些年没改变数不完的思念
是玩笑还是考验我们缘分那麽浅
好想许一个愿让我再见你一面

i miss her so much....

sick,annoy, dishonest, piss person

2010-04-04T22:36:00.002+08:00

if a person have betray you once, there will be more time to come.
i experience a friend doing that to me more than once :)
i seriously do not know how to forgive, but i choose to forget this.
i have no intention to have any connection with that person.
thinking about see or talk to her really eerk me x 100000000 time.
whatever lar... i hope life will get better. even without luck i wish i still can breath!

简单爱

2010-04-03T22:56:00.003+08:00

简单爱

说不上为什么我变得很主动
若爱上一个人什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受

河边的风在吹着头发飘动牵着你的手一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家一起看着日落一直到我们都睡着

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀

我想带你骑单车我想和你看棒球想这样没担忧唱着歌
一直走我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡著像这样的生活我爱你你爱我

简简单单爱

was hoping love would be simple...not complicate Mathe sum.
wonder when can will i find a simpler love?
Kind of miss the period when someone will hold your hand hand stroll around the bridge or watch movie together or just sit back and stare at sunset or cooking for that person :)

keep crossing finger to finding that special one :)

drama :D

2010-04-02T21:09:00.006+08:00

A man story
What makes the drama work, however, is the execution — it feels like a movie, in the way that the director really sets a mood. It’s smooth but not overly slick; it moves well but has some fantastic pauses that create moments of tension.

After a false accusation destroys a family business, the owner commits suicide in despair. His younger brother attempts to fend off ruthless debt collectors from going after his brother’s widow, but an act of desperation lands him in prison for three and a half years.

Born to be rich

lead actor Ji Hyun-woo, who plays a man who grew up poor but clings to the belief that his father is a chaebol who will claim him later. He has a comic meeting with Lee Bo-young, an heiress who lives frugally (and whose reception was a bit more tepid than Ji’s). Nam Goong-min reportedly acquits himself well as a bad guy, as does Lee Shi-young playing a spoiled heiress.

The producers don’t merely intend to show the lifestyles of the wealthy, but will also inject laughs as one man struggles along the path to riches. The comic drama is built on the theme that “Wealth isn’t acquired through blood but through hard work.”

Pasta
Pasta surprised me by being better than I’d expected. The restaurant setting, Gong Hyo-jin is exceedingly cute as an assistant in the kitchen, but what’s even better is that she has great chemistry with Lee Seon-kyun. They have one of the more adorable meet-cutes I’ve seen in a while :) the situation is amusing but it’s their banter that makes the scene sizzle. The credit for that has got to go to Lee Seon-kyun and GODDAMN he has never been so sexy. I have loved this man for a while now, but even so, this is the most charismatic I’ve ever seen him.

us :)

2010-04-01T20:34:00.000+08:00

lost her way

Tiring at work

happy Chinese new year...

i ♥ my job...

whine.

happy new year

merry...

sick

praise the lord

Special

annyong

trips

diet

STRONG

self reflection

April

no peace

gastric flu :[

thoughts

oh my...

looks

New Year's Resolutions

happy new year

variety show

mary x'mas

dreams

time pass so fast

annoying

Love in the Ice - DBSK

starting race

没关系 没关系 没关系

my random

i MISS him

silly ashley

best successes

learning

life

make room for ur need

ashamed of myself

i love my job

workss

不爱了

done ;]

at the angry peak

Clenching a tight fist

開始懂了

our last date...

就算整個世界被寂寞綁票

toward the end

it Over

寂寞寂寞就好

next stop

my asset

peaceful

unsafe

events

i want and to be done

back

it really complicated

HK

hoilday

courage

endless time

flying

G.NA | I'll Back Off So You Can Live

broken heart...

scary

run away...

SESSION

tired

pain

over

feeling

fairytales

roller coaster

lucky - Jason Maz

forbidden pain

by faith they overcome....

nightmare...

a pack of lies

没关系没关系没关系